Sentiment

I am the kind of person who would LIKE to be sentimental…but just can’t manage it.  It seems so unfeminine, to be almost utterly lacking in sentimentality.  I don’t look at old photos with any sense of warm-fuzziness, I don’t look upon gifts as talismans or signs of love (though I do remember who gave them to me and am grateful for them)…I am just not a sentimental girl.  I don’t associate memories with objects…that’s probably why.

It’s probably my desire to be just a little more sentimental that makes me NOT want to sell some of my hairsticks.  Some of my beads are from about 8 years ago, the first I ever bought in an attempt to make jewellery (though they were for a necklace since I wasn’t making hairsticks, back then).  Because of that, I have a sense of possession when I look at them, which makes me not want to sell the hairstick that I later (muuuuuch later) used them to make.  If you’d like to see, the stick in question is Jade Peony, and the beads are the gorgeous red cloisonne tubes and the jade green catseye rounds.

And of course, I have refused to sell the first hairstick I ever made, Ocean Sunset:

I also have mysterious wistful feelings over having sold or given away hairsticks from the past…these ones being about 3 years old.  They are Carmen, Fierce, and Oberon (if you wish to see larger images for the details, just click on them):

And sometimes I buy beads/supplies I like SO much that they click with me on a persona level, and I intend to use them for myself.  However, I usually end up making them into jewellery for sale in any case.  Such is the case with a new pair I’ve made…Vamp.  These are not yet listed on Etsy, but they will be eventually.  I just LOVE those marquis-shaped black glass beads with the band of silver foil and a swirl of pink glass over top.

I do actually miss Carmen, Fierce and Oberon when I think about them…I wish I still had them.  And for no good reason that I can discern, since I’ll never have hair long enough to wear proper hairsticks in.  Does that pass as sentimentality, or is it just stupid on my part?  It doesn’t FEEL like sentiment, unfortunately.  I just like to look at pretty things.

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